People Are Strange.....

I will not call my ex, I will not call my ex, I will not call my ex.......some nights the dating scene is so bad, I want to run back to her. That's pretty damn bad, considering how I was treated by her, but some guys have even less respect for me, if that's even possible. I'm not certain which is worse, the drama and fighting or being treated like a disposable whore. It all gets old. I am thinking of giving up entirely, to tell the truth. Just stop dating, and sequester myself in the house. You can get used to monotony and loneliness, I suppose. Or I could just get blind drunk every time I start to feel anything. Hmmm, liking the last one. I am frightened of dating women- it seems they are all icy bitches who just want to put me down, or suffocating and pathetic. As for tonight, I am possibly embarking on the date from hell. I say "possibly" because I really doubt he'll show up at all. On our last date, he was 3 hours late, and the date itself was a nightmare. I have never been so mad or so uncomfortable. Right now, it is 9 pm, and he hasn't really confirmed he's coming yet. Fuck that. I'm out the door! I'm going to braid my hair and put on a bit of makeup. If he doesn't text by then, screw him, I'm going to the bar- ALONE!