Out Tonight

Having a Rent night tonight. This is one of my favorite songs for hyper nights. When I lived on Main Street, I used to get drunk and go out and sing "Out Tonight" on the fire escape. I wanted to escape my life, and I get the same feeling from Mimi, that she'd just like to fly away sometimes. "In the evenings, I've got to roam, can't sleep in the city of neon and chrome. Feels too damn much like home, when the Spanish babies cried." Life with my live-in boyfriend was beginning to feel as claustrophobic as the stifling place I grew up. Everyone was always trying to make me something I wasn't, to own my soul. I was trapped back in West Chester, and now I was trapped in the city. The stagnancy nearly drove me mad. That was in 2007. Now I live alone, in my own apartment. I still feel like I'm going nowhere sometimes, but at least I have my liberty. My boyfriend of those days is long gone, and my mum and dad are fleeting apparitions. "So let's find a bar so dark we forget who we are, and all of the scars from the nevers and maybes die......." I'd like to, really. Just forget who I am, and move beyond all of the hell I've been through, if only for one night......that would be where freedom lies, in forgetting. "Life is short, babe. Time is flying. I'm looking for baggage that goes with mine." As always, thank you, Jonathan Larson.