Cruel World

I swear, the next person who texts me 50 texts in a row of utter bullshit......I hate texting, and all of my friends know it. It gives me a fucking headache. Plus, we're having some kind of weird March heat wave here, and I don't have air conditioning until May. The pain pills made me really sick, and I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm trying DBT Therapy, but it just makes me feel guilty because I'm such an awful person. I just can't do it anymore. My head is pounding, so I can't even think. My girlfriend refuses to have a normal conversation over the phone.....but she also refuses to see me again until her insomnia is cured. She's had insomnia since I met her, over four and a half years ago, so that means we'll never see each other again.....