04 January 2012

It's Like That

Well. Yesterday was a nightmare. So, today I'm trying to stay away from the person who contributed to my foul mood. If I'm going to be in pain, at least my own body will be the cause. I'm making tea right now, and contemplating my next move, as if this were a chess game and not a relationship. She texts, I reply. I'm pretty much acting as if last night never happened, but I know she will bring it up soon. She can't resist. I'm just going to build up the other areas of my life, I guess. I have control there. I can volunteer for Obama. I can sip tea and go through my email. The only thing I can't do is make her love me. But perhaps it was never my battle to win.....

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