20 February 2013

17 February 2013

desperation

What a depressing night. Everything seems to be falling apart, and I can't seem to fix it. I also dare not ask another human being for the slightest bit of help. No one wants me around, and I accept that. I hate this waiting around....I'm not yet ready for the great leap beyond, but I also see no point in sticking around.  So is the miserable limbo my life has become.

11 February 2013

10 February 2013

For Carrie: A Dedication

Crazy Game, by the Indigo Girls
Crazy game, i never should have started to play, but now you couldn't tear me away cause love is sweet, sweet baby. so good to you and so bad and i fear, the situation's clear before my eyes. confusion wants to break me and it tries but i've been a little bit stronger from the start listen to my heart:

Cause if you're ever believing i'm thinking of leaving look to the moon, cause it's a fact she may go wandering about but she always comes shining back and it's true, i'll wait for you.

You dry your tears, don't be thinking grey is here to stay. sometimes everything is in the way you're wanting to look at it, turn your view around, dry your eyes. eyes like yours should carry a smile, i haven't seen them sparkle in a while, give it one more try, dry your eyes.

Cause if you're ever believing i'm thinking of leaving look to the moon, cause it's a fact she may go wandering about but she always comes shining back and it's true, i'll wait for you.

The last of my sanity

      I shattered last night. Between Andrew and Carrie and all of the cruelty and abuse.....I lost all the pieces,  and I don't want th...