All Hallow's Eve

Just chillin here at home tonight. Will probably go to bed at some point, but not ready yet. I think I'll have a smoke, read, and maybe clean up the kitchen a bit first. I don't really have much to say. I screwed around with the computer for most of the evening, until Marty paid me a visit. Then I came upstairs and got right back on the damn internet. Getting bored with it though. Moving on......

Sunday Mourning

Today has not been the best day, thus far. I woke up feeling sick to my stomach. Decided it was not a good idea to canvass, so I'm going to go in tomorrow, instead. I looked at my Facebook messages, and was stunned. My best friend, who I call my little sister, had some terrible news. Her father died suddenly last night. He was such a good guy, and really loved Nic unconditionally. So, my prayers go out to Nic and her siblings. I never met her father, but of course I'd heard about him a lot, and I'm so sorry to hear of his passing, at such an early age.
Right now I'm just drinking a Dr. Pepper and waiting on the washing machine. I need to clean my "attic" a bit, but am totally not in a cleaning place. Oh, hey, it's already time for the laundry to come out! Running downstairs........

Xanax Prayer

This one is for my girl, lol......

Waiting for November

In quite a depressed state, but not sure why. For one thing, I have no money until my check comes in for next month. Also, certain things in my life just don't seem to......fit. I feel like things aren't really working out in a lot of ways. I'm just too scared to move forward, when it could just be my perception. How does one live with mental illness? It's a delicate balance between wondering if you can trust how you feel, and convincing other people you're not "that crazy." I'm not drooling, I'm not an axe murderer, etc. Oh, yeah, and I'm not a "drama queen." Mental illness is the last safe refuge of bigotry. In being an overweight, bipolar woman, I have seen the worst in humanity. That, and doing political work. I swear, I was hung up on about 30 times tonight, phone banking. Anyway.....October is almost over, thankfully. Not a month I have fond memories of, this year....Hopefully, November will be a little bit better.

Appointments, politics, and other things that sound more interesting than they are

Ah, the week from hell is halfway over. Not that it's been that bad; I've just been outside of my apartment more than usual, and not for fun stuff. Just appointments and such. I barely remember seeing my general practitioner yesterday- I was half asleep. Today's psychiatrist appointment went fine, and from here on out, it should be smooth sailing. I'm making phone calls with the Dems tomorrow night, involving issue 2. We have to shoot down SB5, so if you live in Ohio, make sure you vote. Anyway, Friday is therapy day, and who knows what I'll get into this weekend......

Detours, Fences......

Just chilin' a casa mia. Nothing much going on, and I can't even think of anything to think about. Just texting with Carrie while she watches Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure, which I've had completely memorized for over 20 years. I'm listening to Playlist of the Damned II, which right now is playing "Amber Waves" by Tori Amos. I went to the doctor and to CVS today....and slept from about noon until 4:30 pm. Thus, I'll probably be up late tonight. I see my psychiatrist at 2:30 pm tomorrow, but that's my only scheduled event all day. I'll get a flu shot on Thursday, after my arm heals from my phlebotomy ordeal today. Wow. My life is really dull.......but what is there I can do? Just going to have a loaded baked potato and relax.....

Anticipation

Bored out of my mind tonight. I tried to go to sleep several hours ago, but I was still wide awake after lying there for what seemed like eternity. So, I've declared myself awake, at least for the time being. Today was a pretty dull day, as well, but I understand that life seems to move forward in spurts. Right now is simply a resting point, and it's great for getting the house cleaned. After I finish up on the computer, I may even clean my bathroom or something. I have to be awake and ready by 9:45 am, though, because I have a doctor's appointment in the morning. This sucks, mostly because I am sleepless and very, very hungry. I can't eat anything, though, because I have orders not to, due to needing my blood tested. So, I'm drinking lots of ice water, because that, I think, is allowed. Anyway, moving on....except, what do I move on to? There really isn't much going on in my life these days. Just biding my time, I guess. Mostly because I have no idea what is coming next.......