01 April 2013

As Is

How do two people who loathe themselves stay together? Is it even possible? I'm devastated because for the only time ever, I really fell in love, and this person doesn't care enough about either of us enough to make a few healthy changes. I'm ready to leave the negativity behind. She won't, not even to save our relationship. I have to wonder, do I really mean so little to her? I'm grieving. It feels like the world has ended. Any fiture relationship for me would be a lie. I can love no one but her. I knew she was always at risk for destroying her own life....I just thought she cared more than to kill me too. I guess to her, I'm just collateral damage.
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