Endings

"All the world just stopped now...." and all that bullshit. I refuse to get sentimental this time. I refuse to get caught up in her nonsense again. It's always the same, and I can't go backwards anymore. She's kicked me so many times when I was down. Now she can deal with the fallout. I can't continue to laugh off the abuse. I can't be strong anymore. I just have to live, a virtual zombie. There is no going back. If I don't make it......well, who honestly cares. My mother, and Marty, perhaps. And it's not looking like I will survive. Carrie can make up head pain til the cows come home, and Nicole can rebel against lying in the bed she's made, but I am done.