Illusions

Bored today. Waiting on Mum to take me to the bank and to therapy. Then we're going to go visit my grandmother. Not sure what to say really....everything is so uncertain these days. Life's axis changes from minute to minute, and the idealistic dreams I once had seem worn and tattered. Where do I go from here? I suppose I just plod along, doing nothing until I know what I'm doing. I'm not in heaven or hell, but a strange purgatory. I suppose I must be purged of my illusions before I can move on. Sometimes I think I was better off, not knowing any of this.....