The Madwoman's Blog

03 May 2019

Aftermath

Friday night in Hamilton. I sit here stoned and slowly devour the contents of my kitchen. Tori is singing "Playboy Mommy" and when I hear "Gloria" I think of Mom.

02 May 2019

"Alexa Knows"

Hate to admit it
But you were right all along
Turns out I was just a mirage
Cause he tried to touch me
But his hand went right through
Strange enough all I thought of was you

Flood gates are open
But on the other side
There was nothing
it was all just big hype
So when he asked a question
Why'd you bother to lie
I just wanted something good enough to hide
Was my reply

And I can't help but feel changed
Parts of me ruined
From everything that's happened

And I was trying to be sane
But I don't want to be someone
Who can't believe in magic

So I pretended I'm amazed and that I can't believe my eyes
He made the world disappear but I do that trick
All the fucking time

Did time make me look smarter?
I asked in the parking lot
He said my hair's gotten longer
But I still hide and talk

And I thought I knew by now
Questions only lead to answers
You never could allow
Any scripted banter

And I can't help but feel changed
Parts of me ruined
From everything that's happened

And I was trying to be sane
But I don't want to be someone
Who can't believe in magic

So I pretended I'm amazed and that I can't believe my eyes
He made the world disappear but I do that trick
All the fucking time

Did time make me look smarter?
I asked in the parking lot
He said my hair's gotten longer
But I still hide and talk

And I thought I knew by now
Questions only lead to answers
You never could allow
Any scripted banter

20 April 2019

18 April 2019

Liquor bottles that have figured prominently in my life....top photo is from 2010- Marty broke out his Brazilian bottle of booze for my thirtieth birthday. The bottom one is some absinthe from Noonans. I drank it in 2011 during a break with Carrie.