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15 April 2021

Might not awake without you

 I have a confession. Don't worry, I'm not blatantly confessing here. I just have a problem that I thought I had avoided all these years. I am confronting it now, and I will probably talk more about it later. With enough courage and the help of time for distance, I will say more later. All I can say now is, "I'm sorry, and I love you. Sing with me,, Bell Bottom Blue...."

My So-Called Heroine, age 13

The idol of my early teen years- Juliana Hatfield!

End of the Winter

 February was the most life altering month I've had in a long time. I became disillusioned with Shrek, started a serious relationship with Andy...and, on 16 February, I took what I hope was my last hit of crystal meth. I had been using steadily since October, but simply couldn't continue anymore. The weird patches of skin on my body soon started heali9ng and clearing up. Quitting has, so far, been easier than I expected. If I focus on other things, I have no desire to use. Andy has been really a great help too. My life is finally improving.

The nights were long and cold and scary. Can we live through February?

 A recent photo of me (yes, I admit it's been altered a bit). Andy and I are a couple now; he is currently asleep in my bed. Going to go clean the house now! Btw, the title of this post comes from a Dar Williams song....

January Made Me Shiver

 I started the new year at Fort Hamilton hospital with a kidney infection and sepsis, as well as liver issues. I was released the next week...my health was a priority for the month. Next installment of the blog, whenever that is done, will be about the pleasing mess that is early February....

The first post of 2021- A Summary of 2020

 Jan 2020- Matt makes an idiot of himself, but I take him back.

Feb 2020- Nicole goads Matt into buying me roses for Valentine's Day.

Mar 2020- Matt leaves as the pandemic ramps up.

Apr 2020- Carolyn returns midway through the month.

May 2020-I have been in hell, aka The Petty Plaza, for 10 years!

Jun-Aug 2020- I spend most of my time with Carolyn.

Sept 2020- Carolyn and I have a short hiatus at the end of the month.

Oct 2020- The final swan song of Carolyn and Ricki- a tragedy in 13 acts.

Nov 2020- I turn 40 and it seems like a Pretty Good Year.

Dec 2020- The Inferno lights up anew.