The Madwoman's Blog

01 July 2016

A favorite quote.....

13 June 2016

A Song of Strength in a Sad Time

These are the lyrics to "Power of Two" by the Indigo Girls. It's my dedication to the LGBTQ community of Orlando, Florida, after the extreme tragedy this weekend at Pulse. The Indigo Girls are a lesbian folk-rock duo I've been listening to since the nineties. They always gave me the courage to be myself even when it wasn't easy.

Now the parking lot is empty
Everyone's gone someplace
I pick you up and in the trunk I've packed
A cooler and a 2-day suitcase
'Cause there's a place we like to drive
Way out in the country
Five miles out of the city limit we're singing and your
Hand's upon my knee

So we're okay
We're fine
Baby I'm here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
I'm stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
We'll look at them together then we'll take them apart
Adding up the total of a love that's true
Multiply life by the power of two

You know the things that I am afraid of
I'm not afraid to tell
And if we ever leave a legacy
It's that we loved each other well
'Cause I've seen the shadows of so many people
Trying on the treasures of youth
But a road that fancy and fast ends ends in a fatal crash
And I'm glad we got off
To tell you the truth

'Cause we're okay
We're fine
Baby I'm here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
I'm stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
We'll look at them together then we'll take them apart
Adding up the total of a love that's true
Multiply life by the power of two

All the shiny little trinkets of temptation (make new friends)
Something new instead of something old (but keep the old)
All you gotta do is scratch beneath the surface (but remember what is gold)
And it's fools gold
Fools gold (what is gold)
Fools gold (what is gold)

Now we're talking about a difficult thing
And your eyes are getting wet
I took us for better and I took us for worse
Don't you ever forget it
And now the steel bars
Now the steel bars between me and a promise
Suddenly bend with ease
And the closer I'm bound in love to you
The closer I am to free (free)

Songwriters
EMILY ANN SALIERS

04 June 2016

Throwback

Hanna Crab.....she died on the first night of Hanukkah, in 2012. Sometimes even painful memories are sweet......

14 May 2016

A New Selfie

This is me on my "second birthday," 13 May. I woke up 9 years ago yesterday, strong enough to leave captivity. If only I wasn't always ensnared again.....

02 May 2016

Suicide Girl Hopeful?

This is going to be my profile pic if I decide to go through with it- becoming a Suicide Girl Hopeful. Yes, I know how old I am, but so much for aging gracefully. I'm going out kicking and screaming....

"I was blessed with a birth and a death, and I guess I just want some say in between..."
-Ani DiFranco

01 May 2016

Moment of Forgiveness

An Indigo Girls song I found relevant today.....
"Moment Of Forgiveness"

Well I guess that I was lonely,
that's why I called you on the phone.
'Cause in a moment of forgiveness,
I didn't want to be alone.

And I guess that I was willin,
more than I ever was before.
'Cause in a moment of forgiveness,
I come a knockin at your door.

Baby I woke up cryin last night
just to realize that you were gone.
Has it been two long years without you?
When are you gonna come home?

I guess that I was hoping
that you'd finally understand,
and in a moment of forgiveness,
you'd reach out and take my hand.

Now baby I know you're not one
for bearing witness.
You told me that one wrong move
is gonna sell you out.
I see that you kept your word
And made it harder than it had to be.
Wish I could save you the trouble baby,
give you a little peace of mind.

Baby I woke up cryin last night
just to realize that you were gone.
Has it been two long years without you?
When are you gonna come home?

I guess that I was hoping
that you'd finally understand,
and in a moment of forgiveness,
you'd reach out and take my hand.