Insomnia With An Attitude

I cannot sleep. This does not make me a bad person, nor does it mean I will not try harder to sleep in the future. It just means that I am awake at 4:17 am. I am not, contrary to popular belief, happy about still being awake. No, sleep is not my favorite activity, but I don't maniacally stay awake to inconvenience others. For that matter, I am not manic. I merely have my sleep schedule completely out of whack. I didn't wake up on Tuesday until 3:30 pm, which made everyone happy (at least temporarily). Which makes me wonder, why is everyone so unhappy about me being awake? Sigh. I am so sick of constantly defending myself on this issue. I'm not fond of sleeping, and never really have been. It's a personal preference. My father is the same. I'd rather be awake and amusing myself, than bored out of my mind lying in bed. But, it seems like if I don't at least make a token comment about how great sleep is, I am an unfit human being. But.......if I don't at least stare at the ceiling from now until 7 am, no one will like me. If only I'd grow some balls and be able to have a nice cheerful all-nighter!