Death of the Life I Once Led

I've lost everything. I can't quite explain that.....but trust me, at the very least, the past week has destroyed my life. All of the illusions I didn't even know I had are shattered. I very nearly committed suicide tonight. My older brother saved my life. He wouldn't let me go. Everyone else considers me an inevitable suicide, and has given up. One person, one alone, thought I was worth keeping on this earth.One person actually treated it as if it was a game, to drive me insane. She is the person who took it all from me, in the first place. I can understand indifference, I suppose, or retaliation. But outright cruelty, to kill another human being for sport? Never. May I never sink so low.