Depressed

As nice as Mike is, he can't seem to fill the hole in my heart. I'm not entirely certain he's even interested in me. We rarely text or talk, most days. Carrie was my whole life. How do I go from one extreme to the other? I feel empty and lonely. I've lost my soulmate, and everyone expects me to act like nothing happened. Seven years of my life belonged to her. I wish I had the courage to end my life. Sadly, I pathetically remain. Why, I'll never know.