27 September 2020

Dead Again

 So what happens now? She left yesterday. It was the last time. I've been drained of everything; her greed is limitless. I just ask to live in my little corner until I am able to follow the ghosts in my head.

26 September 2020

14 September 2020

 I am the definition of insanity. I do the same thing day after day, and frankly, I'd like a pistol for personal use. Carrie has been asleep for days, or, at least, avoiding me. Some idiot babbles nearby. I can't take this shit. If I don't end up in a mental hospital this fall, I might just die of shock.

10 September 2020

The Emperor's New Clothes

 It seems like years since you held the baby

While I wrecked the bedroom
You said it was dangerous after Sunday
And I knew you loved me
He thinks I just became famous
And that's what messed me up
But he's wrong
How could I possibly know what I want
When I was only twenty-one?
And there's millions of people
To offer advice and say how I should be
But they're twisted
And they will never be any influence on me
But you will always be
You will always be
If I treated you mean
I really didn't mean to
But you know how it is
And how a pregnancy can change you
I see plenty of clothes that I like
But I won't go anywhere nice for a while
All I want to do is just sit here
And write it all down and rest for a while
I can't bear to be in another city
One where you are not
I would return to nothing without you
If I'm your girlfriend or not
Maybe I was mean
But I really don't think so
You asked if I'm scared
And I said so
Everyone can see what's going on
They laugh `cause they know they're untouchable
Not because what I said was wrong
Whatever it may bring
I will live by my own policies
I will sleep with a clear conscience
I will sleep in peace
Maybe it sounds mean
But I really don't think so
You asked for the truth and I told you
Through their own words
They will be exposed
They've got a severe case of
The emperor's new clothes
The emperor's new clothes
The emperor's new clothes

06 September 2020

When Will You Wake Up?

 "Cool On Your Island"


If you don't treat me better
Baby I'll just run away
Baby I don't know what drives you
To play all these silly games
C'mon baby
I'm much stronger than you know
Sometimes
I'm not afraid to let it show

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool on your island

I gotta brand new dress babe
Could it make you wanna try
I guess I didn't want to notice
The stars gone from your eyes
C'mon baby
I'm much stronger than you know
Sometimes
I'm not afraid to let it show

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool on your island

We could buy an airplane
Build a home in the sand
You could tell your secrets
I could understand
But then by the morning
Comes crumblin' down
And as your leavin'
Wait

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool, baby
When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
You're so cool on your island
Is it cool on your island
Is it cool baby

If you don't treat me better
Baby I'll just run away
Cool on your island
If you don't treat me
One day you'll wake up cold
Yeah, then you'll know
You'll know
You'll know
You love me

05 September 2020

The Heart Wants What The Heart Wants

 "I may never understand why you left

I guess I just have to accept this is the way it was meant to be
Kind of like how I never understood how the ocean just stops at the shore
And why it doesn't wash away the land
If only someone could hold my heart and my hand
And make it feel like you did, and not give up so easy
There's no need to be angry, it's okay to be sad
I just have to trust there's something better for me out there swirling around in the universe
Someone who will believe in themselves as much as I do
And never take a wish for granted and always count the stars
Looking back, you're always closer than you thought
There's no point now in starting something new
The heart wants what the heart wants
And none of it matters in the end if you can't love someone back
Love and truth are whispering, "you can't start a fire in the pouring rain"

-Tristan Prettyman

04 September 2020

Field Trips

 Andrew is here, and we're talking about field trips from our childhood. I went to an overnight to Cosi in Columbus with the gifted clas...