Hanukkah, nights 1-5

 I used both an LED menorah and a traditional menorah with candles. Hanukkah Sameach!

 In proud solidarity with the protesters at METU in Turkey. #@odtulgbti

Fantasy

 Cross these 2 pics to get..."Sexy Italian schoolgirl who knows no English"

Dying Inside

 

Petey

 

A Younger Me

 This was me, before the horrors that summer brought...

Francesca's Corset

 

Francesca

 

You had me from Ed Gein

 "A Sorta Fairytale"

on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

i could pick back up
whenever i feel

down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said

way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this

13 years ago...

 Carrie and me in October 2007, one month after we met. 

My Favorite Meme

 

My Tori Song

 "Sleeps With Butterflies"

Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

My current read

 

Gia

 Some beautiful topless shots of Gia Carangi.

Danny

 

Today is the birthday of murdered WSJ journalist Daniel Pearl. Way back in 2007, I started a conversation about him in a Starbucks....I was much younger then.

Happy Birthday to John Lennon

 

Beautiful!

 

Dita von Teese

16 Shades of Blue

 

16 Shades of Blue

Lyrics by Tori Amos

are you telling me it's over disintegrating lost and there's nothing I can do
before you drop another verbal bomb, can I arm myself
with Cézanne's 16 shades of blue

as my heart is slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of my mind
"you'll get over it" you say "in time"
in time?
if the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
clocks are black

you say "get over it if 50 is the new black, hooray this could be your lucky day"
but my cables they are surging almost over loading as you disengage

could your heart be slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of your mind
"we'll get over it" you say "in time"
in time?
if the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
clocks are black

"that's it you're done.
You've screwed up your life"
before you've begun
there are those who say
I am now too old to play

see over there at 33 she fears she'll lose her job
because they hear the ticking of her clock
at only 15 I said 15, they say her future's bleak
she should have started this at 3

as her heart is slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of her mind
"she'll get over it" you say "in time"
in time? stop Father Time
if the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
how our clocks are black

before you drop another verbal bomb
can I arm myself
with Cézanne's 16 shades of blue

It's Over

 Sorry sir, I stole your money

Sorry sir, I feel
But it's so, so twisted
So unreal

It was what I'd heard of
And what I didn't have
But I cannot give what I do not have
And I cannot take what I do not have
I can't take it

Don't stultify
Don't hold me high
Don't stultify
Don't hold me high

Too many things held precious
Too many things held dear;
That's what I hate
And that's what I fear
Too much to ask for
May leave me feeling lonely
But too little leaves me nothing, nothing

The drone in your voice and the fly on the wall said
"It's over, it's over, it's over, it is."
What do I wish for you, what do i wish?
It's over, it's over, it is

Zaytoven & Quavo Hit The Studio With The Winning Producer Of Genius x Fruit by the Foot™ Contest

Are we still solemn and bleeding?
Are we still swimming to water that was wet?
You can't give away certain things that you get

From the outside
To the inside
I couldn't tell you how it really was
There has to be more on one hand
Keep your head above water on the other, the other

The drone in your voice and the fly on the wall said
"It's over, it's over, it's over, it is."
What do I wish for you, what do i wish?
It's over, it's over, it is

Are we all still solemn and bleeding?
Are we still swimming to water that was already wet?
I can forgive, but I won't forget

I'll wish for you
I'll plead and I'll steal
Hold me precious, hold me dear
I'll wish for you
I'll sing and I'll feel
Don't stultify
Don't hold me high

Like a Gothic staple, a last goodbye
One way to float is if you die
And it's over, it's over, it's over

It's over, it's over, it's over
It's over, it's over