Closer

Having stress issues (ie, a panic attack) tonight. I am irritable and mean...and I just want to be solo tonight. On the bright side, here are the lyrics to a song I just heard recently and liked...


"Closer"
(feat. Halsey)

Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you
I drink too much and that's an issue
But I'm OK
Hey, you tell your friends it was nice to meet them
But I hope I never see them
Again

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke-down car
And four years, no calls
Now you're looking pretty in a hotel bar
And I, I, I, I, I can't stop
No, I, I, I, I, I can't stop

So, baby, pull me closer
In the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older

You look as good as the day I met you
I forget just why I left you,
I was insane
Stay and play that Blink-182 song
That we beat to death in Tucson,
OK

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke-down car
And four years, no call
Now I'm looking pretty in a hotel bar
And I, I, I, I, I can't stop
No, I, I, I, I, I can't stop

So, baby, pull me closer
In the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older

So, baby, pull me closer
In the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older

A favorite Tori quote.....

....in fridge magnets :)

All I Can Say Today

Don't Ask Anymore

I need a jump start; I feel completely stuck, and stifled by my old routines and habits. Not certain what exactly to do. So, for tonight, I'll just chill out, finish my WWII book, smoke....the stuff I always do, I guess. I honestly know nothing else. I'm even wishing it had worked out with Carrie, in some odd way. I feel like the map ends here. Where am I going to?

Saturdays

A nice Saturday afternoon here....it's unbelievably cold outside, but nice and cozy in my apt. Hanging out here with Andrew, just chilling. I have "Winter" by Tori playing on iTunes....today is my mum's birthday, btw. I have decided I need a bit of a break from politics for awhile. I'll turn my obsessive nature over to safer, more peaceful interests, like Game of Thrones, lol. I'm also reading a very comprehensive tome on WWII, from the building library. Of course, as always, the messes I live amongst need cleaning (dishes, mopping, etc), so I really should get going....

My theme song

"Rattlesnakes"

Jodie wears a hat although it hasn't rained for six days
she says a girl needs a gun these days
hey on account of all the rattlesnakes
she looks like Eve Marie Saint in on the waterfront
she reads Simone de Beauvoir in her American circumstance
she's less than sure if her heart has come to stay in San Jose
and her neverborn child still haunts her
as she speeds down the freeway
as she tries her luck with the traffic police
out of boredom more than spite
she never finds no trouble, she tries too hard
she's obvious despite herself
she looks like Eve Marie Saint in on the waterfront
she says all she needs is therapy yeah
all you need is, love is all you need
Jodie never sleeps 'cause there are always needles in the hay
she says that a girl needs a gun these days
hey on account of all the rattlesnakes
she looks like Eve Marie Saint in on the waterfront
as she reads Simone de Beauvoir in her American circumstance
her heart, heart's like crazy paving
upside down and back to front
she says ooh, it's so hard to love
when love was your great disappointment